I think i have fully recovered, that's good. But everytime i see my friends, they will ask me.' Why so black?' Then i will replied ' Oh cos i went diving' . I have lost count on how many times i said that. Felt irritated and sicked of it. Maybe they were asking out of curiosity and concern. If this the case than it's ok, other than that, i have nothing to say.

After doing some reflections, i came to a conclusion. If Xz were to go Tioman, he will understand that life is actually very simple. People in there have no worries. Everytime i see them, they were either laughing or smiling. Whereas in here, life is stressful. There is no need to further complicate it. Bacsically all the stress arises from all the high expectations given to us by ourselves.

The second night, some guys head to the pub to chill out. I don't think it is a place for me. I can't drink, i sux at it. Instead of wasting my time, i chose to do something more thrilling. I managed to hook up with another guy and we did a walk around the island. It was amazing. I got to appreciate the quiet side of life. I think sometimes in our journey, we need that kind of time-out.
If Xz were to experience that, i think i will still be able to see him in school tml.

Up till now, i still feel sorry for Xz. After his death, i blamed almost everyone for not giving him a chance. But blaming do not solve problems. Instead, he should give all of us a chance to help him. Anyway, what over is over.

I am Sorry, it's All that i can Say.